the first love

This is a story of a very common and simple girl. I am sure we all go through this stage in our lives. So this is how it starts. She was just 12 or 13… and yes the right age of to fall in love, isn't it? We the 80’s kids can related to this quite closely I feel cause we have experienced the change, the evolution of science, technology and love.

Yes evolution of love. Now I guess people do not have the time to fall in love. Moreover busy to beat the competitors to survive and get a better life. But even in the suburbs of our country are still allowing you to go through the best phases of life. If you belong to a small town or a village like me you will surely agree.

So here I introduce my little lover girl Raushni. Just like the name she was a spark of light. No not a fair or beautiful girl, but with a beautiful smile. Yes that's all she had. She had no fashion sense as her peers had, She had no boyfriends in fact, she was mostly unnoticed as she was not a beautiful girl. She was dark, fat and short. Her classmates, friends all made fun of her look so even she preferred to remain unnoticed. But love noticed her, as she was growing and getting closer to teenage, bollywood films and link ups by classmates made her fall in love. Yes she started experiencing the most beautiful feeling of first love. Raushni was turning brighter and brighter with time and fell deeply in love.

Like her friends she also wanted to enjoy the feel of being in love, she also wanted to experience the attention from her crush. The first crush of her life “Rahul Shukla”. Raushni’s dad used to work with a Govt. farm so as the guys father. But the hunk was a senior and was in college so now the challenge was to convey that she likes him. But how!!??

She had friend, a neighbor who was her all time buddy, so one fine day she expressed her feelings about the guy to her buddy the savior. Now they finally decided to write a love letter. No exaggeration, she really wrote her first love letter after at least a 87 drafts.

Dear ……..,

I just want to be friends with you… can I?  

Regards & “Love”

Raushni

“Love”, she must read the word in the letter ennumber of times and hoped he must also read the note with same passion that she felt. One fine summer evening her savior, the buddy took her along and handed over her “first love letter”.

Thats the moment… it really did not matter whether she will get a reply or not. If he will say yes or not, it was the first feeling of love. Nothing in life can be more beautiful than this. One may fall in love in a mature age, make love, get married or whatever. But first love is just out of the world.

Then with time their cute little love started to grow. When she used to go to school by bus he used to come to closest store with some excuse just for a glance. This was the best time of the day. Both eagerly used to wait for the glance of each other’s love.

They never met in a park or went for movie but still there was a connect, an invisible bond which Raushni’s smart friends did not have.

Now she was in a relationship, was in love. But with time she had to join college in Kolkata and got through a well known college, but she was really upset. Finally she found a way to keep in touch with her man and that is phone call. The trend of mobile phones were still not so common so it used to be blind tries on landline and expect to hear Rahul’s voice.

But things did not remain so sweet for them and Rahul’s father came to know about this and strictly instructed him to get out this. Their families do not encourage love marriage or inter cast marriage. She called Rahul once and he said he will call back.

But her wait never ended, she finished her college, started working, post graduation and then a new job life. Still the call is waited…. no Rahul did not call back anymore, he did not say a goodbye, did not state a reason to leave her alone. He just kept her waiting.

Now almost 13 years have passed, Rahul is a husband, a father now but Raushni still brightening others and waiting for her Rahul to make that call.

She knows her wait is endless.